it's that time of the year again where the chinese will pay respect to their ancestors.

though i have been there every year, unless i cant make it due to exams or school, it feels SO different this year.

i never imagined i could not utter a single word in front of her. there was so much i wanted to say. there was just so much so so much. but.. all i could say was, i was glad to see her once again and take care, whereever she is.

everyone has their own way of having closures and moving on. i have accepted the fact that she is not longer with me but i just could not bring myself to say anything. i dont know why.

indeed it has been close to 2 years now but.. i just had tears welling and all when i started to talk. i just had to blink them away and utter those few words to her and we left.

till this very day, she has been my all and i'm really glad to have her to be there for me all these while.

like i said before. "when i lost her, i lost myself."


someone told me "when someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure." it's really kinda awesome. i didnt think i could even come up with something as such.