Staring out into the world across the street
You hate the way your life turned out to be
He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound
Cause you always learn to hold the things you want to say
Your always going to be afraid
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Broken down like a mirror smashed to peices
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile
If these walls could talk they would have so much to say
Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal but there never gonna go away
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh no So what will you do?
Your falling, your screaming
Your stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying, your crying
There's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door cause this is over
Get me out of here
(Kick the door)
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Tell me what will you do?
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here.
wow.. such emo words for this emo world.
Monday, March 29, 2010
an utter waste of time as it may seem to be visiting the jobs fair given that i already have a full time job of my own.
well i just had to go to have a look at what's there. a hirer asked me quite a number of questions and that got me thinking. well they were rather basic questions but these are questions that we jolly well know yet refuse to start asking ourselves.
he asked:
- 5 years down the road and do you picture yourself doing that?
- is this what you really want in life?
- do you not want to be at the mercy of your boss but start doing things that will pave the way for you to make money that is worth your worth?
the 5 years things really spiked me.
well, i know i'm still fresh in the current market. i havent thought of a path for myself. throughout the conversation, he kept pressing me, so what do you want to achieve in 5 years. i cant. i just cant give him an answer. and each time he asked i will jokingly reply that i would love to sit at home and food will miraculously appear in front of me. SUPER lame i know, but... i've lost the tenacity i used to have. i've lost the want, the drive, the motivation, to get what i want, when i'm at a lost of what i want.
i want to see the world. BUT to be able to do that i need to have the time and money. i have the time but do not have the money. till the day i have the money, i no longer have the time. so how? i do not want to be some rich CEOs who have all the money in the world but when they decide to see the world, they realise their legs could no longer carry them. they could not smile as brilliantly as before when they pose for photos.
i do not want to be like them!
but as girls, i guess, what we really want or at least i think i would want, is to have just that someone whom i can come home to, make me smile, to talk to me about anything in world, to understand me, to give me a hug when i feel terrible and when just his hug alone would take all my troubles away. at least when i come out of the hug i will have the strength to face the problem i have and have it worked out.
5 years is not a long time nor is it a short time. different people can achieve different things in 5 years.
right now, all i know is, i'll do ALL i can to be happy, get the paper qualification that everyone hopes i will get and yes, last of all is to still BE happy.
well i just had to go to have a look at what's there. a hirer asked me quite a number of questions and that got me thinking. well they were rather basic questions but these are questions that we jolly well know yet refuse to start asking ourselves.
he asked:
- 5 years down the road and do you picture yourself doing that?
- is this what you really want in life?
- do you not want to be at the mercy of your boss but start doing things that will pave the way for you to make money that is worth your worth?
the 5 years things really spiked me.
well, i know i'm still fresh in the current market. i havent thought of a path for myself. throughout the conversation, he kept pressing me, so what do you want to achieve in 5 years. i cant. i just cant give him an answer. and each time he asked i will jokingly reply that i would love to sit at home and food will miraculously appear in front of me. SUPER lame i know, but... i've lost the tenacity i used to have. i've lost the want, the drive, the motivation, to get what i want, when i'm at a lost of what i want.
i want to see the world. BUT to be able to do that i need to have the time and money. i have the time but do not have the money. till the day i have the money, i no longer have the time. so how? i do not want to be some rich CEOs who have all the money in the world but when they decide to see the world, they realise their legs could no longer carry them. they could not smile as brilliantly as before when they pose for photos.
i do not want to be like them!
but as girls, i guess, what we really want or at least i think i would want, is to have just that someone whom i can come home to, make me smile, to talk to me about anything in world, to understand me, to give me a hug when i feel terrible and when just his hug alone would take all my troubles away. at least when i come out of the hug i will have the strength to face the problem i have and have it worked out.
5 years is not a long time nor is it a short time. different people can achieve different things in 5 years.
right now, all i know is, i'll do ALL i can to be happy, get the paper qualification that everyone hopes i will get and yes, last of all is to still BE happy.
Friday, March 26, 2010
You know, sometimes being on the road is rough
Especially loneliness...
Girl I miss you
And it's only been one day
Since I went away
And already I say
I long to kiss you
And hold you in my arms
The nights are much too long when you're gone
Baby, that's why
Wherever I go
Girl, my heart stays with you
After every show
I wanna rush over to you
My heart stays with you
Trust me, when we are apart
I won't break your heart
Wherever you are
I know you feel me
Baby, 'cause I can feel you too
No matter what you do
I think of you
Girl, my heart stays with you
After every show
I wanna rush over to you
Baby, yeah
When I'm leaving town
Girl it hurts me too
But I've got a job to do
I'll be back around
To feel your sweet face
Your dear embrace
No one can take your place
is this something that you've been wanting to tell me?
Especially loneliness...
Girl I miss you
And it's only been one day
Since I went away
And already I say
I long to kiss you
And hold you in my arms
The nights are much too long when you're gone
Baby, that's why
Wherever I go
Girl, my heart stays with you
After every show
I wanna rush over to you
My heart stays with you
Trust me, when we are apart
I won't break your heart
Wherever you are
I know you feel me
Baby, 'cause I can feel you too
No matter what you do
I think of you
Girl, my heart stays with you
After every show
I wanna rush over to you
Baby, yeah
When I'm leaving town
Girl it hurts me too
But I've got a job to do
I'll be back around
To feel your sweet face
Your dear embrace
No one can take your place
is this something that you've been wanting to tell me?
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
good looks attract the eyes. personality/character attracts the heart..
he/she cheats because you are not giving him/her what he/she needs..
quotes from various, but i find them really true.
in a relationship, it's not just about the companionship. there is more to it. to make a relationship work, it takes 2. it takes alot of effort for both parties to make it work.
utmost trust, constant communication, absolute honesty and faith in each other, to me, are of ultimate importance in a relationship. without any of these, even if your other half looks like heaven, it wont even matter cos th relationship will not last.
if you cannot trust your other half now, what about 50years and beyond? so what if he's texting this other girl? so what if he goes out with female colleagues/friends? so what if he doesnt reply to your calls/text? does it mean that he's definitely cheating on you? he can love you and ONLY you while he's out with some other girls. you just have to have faith in your relationship and trust him. isnt it really tiring to always want to know who's he with, what's he doing? you'll go bonkers one day!
if he's really someone so dear to you, i dont see HOW dear he is, when you cant trust him at all!!
communication is really very important. it forms the basis of understanding. imagine someone who doesnt communicate to you his/her thoughts. HOW can you even understand him in the least bit? it doesn help if he cannot understand a very simple message you tried to put across. some call this.. chemistry between couples. oh wells.. *shrugs*
being dishonest and not have faith in each other will eventually lead to a relationship's end too.
the luxury to have breakfast with you is what i dream of now.
he/she cheats because you are not giving him/her what he/she needs..
quotes from various, but i find them really true.
in a relationship, it's not just about the companionship. there is more to it. to make a relationship work, it takes 2. it takes alot of effort for both parties to make it work.
utmost trust, constant communication, absolute honesty and faith in each other, to me, are of ultimate importance in a relationship. without any of these, even if your other half looks like heaven, it wont even matter cos th relationship will not last.
if you cannot trust your other half now, what about 50years and beyond? so what if he's texting this other girl? so what if he goes out with female colleagues/friends? so what if he doesnt reply to your calls/text? does it mean that he's definitely cheating on you? he can love you and ONLY you while he's out with some other girls. you just have to have faith in your relationship and trust him. isnt it really tiring to always want to know who's he with, what's he doing? you'll go bonkers one day!
if he's really someone so dear to you, i dont see HOW dear he is, when you cant trust him at all!!
communication is really very important. it forms the basis of understanding. imagine someone who doesnt communicate to you his/her thoughts. HOW can you even understand him in the least bit? it doesn help if he cannot understand a very simple message you tried to put across. some call this.. chemistry between couples. oh wells.. *shrugs*
being dishonest and not have faith in each other will eventually lead to a relationship's end too.
the luxury to have breakfast with you is what i dream of now.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
Avril's new song! super awesome n LOVE it! (:
havent heard her sing in a long while manns.. nostalgic~
and i have a sudden thought that came along with it. it's so nice to wake up late and have your other half holding your hands to go for breakfast together! such a luxury. (:
i miss such luxuries. i miss mr A.
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
Avril's new song! super awesome n LOVE it! (:
havent heard her sing in a long while manns.. nostalgic~
and i have a sudden thought that came along with it. it's so nice to wake up late and have your other half holding your hands to go for breakfast together! such a luxury. (:
i miss such luxuries. i miss mr A.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
alice in wonderland!!
woohoo~
the red queen says "off with your head!" lols.. it's seriously hilarious manns.. whenever someone offends her, she'll say this.
ooh ooh.. this is my FAVOURITE line "You're mad, bonkers... but I'll tell you a secret - all the best people are."
and this.. "why is a raven like a writing desk?"
zomg.. this can go on forever!
"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!"
"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see." (this is like a super great excuse to use manns! lols)
"If everybody minded their own business, the world would go around a great deal faster than it does."
"I think I should understand that better, if I had it written down: but I can't quite follow it as you say it."
"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?"
"Read the directions and directly you will be directed in the right direction."
Intriguing quotes they have there. it's really kinda awesome. (:
ooh.. some madness happened today. i was in a taxi enroute to town. then.. i told the driver i only wanted to pass through just one erp gantry. no more than one. guess what? he said, to get to orchard you'll definitely have to get past 2 gantries. so he said "it's okays, i'll stop the meter earlier and send you on the last little stretch for free! cos you have the nicest smile ever." and he grinned. so dotz la the uncle. but it was nice of him to make that offer to me. plus.. he paid for the 2nd erp! woohoo~ thankew uncle! (:
i was given this job where it had been said that the client is really nasty and mean. this client has ever complained to the partner before and made a big fuss out of the previous year's audit. when i heard i had to do the job, i was uber shocked. i dont know how the client will turn out to be and if i would be their next target if i dont do a good job. i was really really really very very very worried. my senior went down with me for 3.5 days. i'm supposed to be there for 7 days. it's my 6th day now. guess what? the client is NOT nasty and mean like what others said!! the client actually treated me to durian ice-cream! ooh.. it's pretty awesome. (: love it!
honestly, the client wasnt that nice for the first few days but changed thereafter. well i guess, when you treat others with respect and love they will reciprocate. and and.. she makes tea for me every afternoon now! (: she even offered to change the bottled water when she saw it had been there for a few days and i'm still drinking it. she claims it's not "fresh" anymore. oh wells.. to me, it's just water. no biggy manns.. but i merely smiled and thanked her for it.
there was one day when i planned to skip lunch and she came in to ask.. hey, arent you eating? it's pretty late. c'mon lets go together and work hard later. i didnt expect this from her at all, really..
she comes in in the evenings to tease me too! lols..
smiles can really do wonders manns!
mr A, u're so missed~ (:
woohoo~
the red queen says "off with your head!" lols.. it's seriously hilarious manns.. whenever someone offends her, she'll say this.
ooh ooh.. this is my FAVOURITE line "You're mad, bonkers... but I'll tell you a secret - all the best people are."
and this.. "why is a raven like a writing desk?"
zomg.. this can go on forever!
"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!"
"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see." (this is like a super great excuse to use manns! lols)
"If everybody minded their own business, the world would go around a great deal faster than it does."
"I think I should understand that better, if I had it written down: but I can't quite follow it as you say it."
"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?"
"Read the directions and directly you will be directed in the right direction."
Intriguing quotes they have there. it's really kinda awesome. (:
ooh.. some madness happened today. i was in a taxi enroute to town. then.. i told the driver i only wanted to pass through just one erp gantry. no more than one. guess what? he said, to get to orchard you'll definitely have to get past 2 gantries. so he said "it's okays, i'll stop the meter earlier and send you on the last little stretch for free! cos you have the nicest smile ever." and he grinned. so dotz la the uncle. but it was nice of him to make that offer to me. plus.. he paid for the 2nd erp! woohoo~ thankew uncle! (:
i was given this job where it had been said that the client is really nasty and mean. this client has ever complained to the partner before and made a big fuss out of the previous year's audit. when i heard i had to do the job, i was uber shocked. i dont know how the client will turn out to be and if i would be their next target if i dont do a good job. i was really really really very very very worried. my senior went down with me for 3.5 days. i'm supposed to be there for 7 days. it's my 6th day now. guess what? the client is NOT nasty and mean like what others said!! the client actually treated me to durian ice-cream! ooh.. it's pretty awesome. (: love it!
honestly, the client wasnt that nice for the first few days but changed thereafter. well i guess, when you treat others with respect and love they will reciprocate. and and.. she makes tea for me every afternoon now! (: she even offered to change the bottled water when she saw it had been there for a few days and i'm still drinking it. she claims it's not "fresh" anymore. oh wells.. to me, it's just water. no biggy manns.. but i merely smiled and thanked her for it.
there was one day when i planned to skip lunch and she came in to ask.. hey, arent you eating? it's pretty late. c'mon lets go together and work hard later. i didnt expect this from her at all, really..
she comes in in the evenings to tease me too! lols..
smiles can really do wonders manns!
mr A, u're so missed~ (:
ooh.. dear john is.. kinda nice!
though some were telling me it's kinda draggy. wells.. shows like these need to be draggy to portray the agony n despair n all? lols. oh wells.. *shrugs*
the entirety of dear john just made me miss mr A, ALOT, really really really ALOT..
mr A, if you only knew. cos i dont know how to tell you, but yeahs.. if you only knew..
though some were telling me it's kinda draggy. wells.. shows like these need to be draggy to portray the agony n despair n all? lols. oh wells.. *shrugs*
the entirety of dear john just made me miss mr A, ALOT, really really really ALOT..
mr A, if you only knew. cos i dont know how to tell you, but yeahs.. if you only knew..
wat and all i can say is... i miss i love and i so wanna, wanna see you.
love this place
But it's haunted without you
My tired heart
Is beating so slow
Our hearts sing less
Than we wanted
We wanted
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know
We do not know
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said
I always know
You can catch me
Don't you run
Don't you run
If you live another day
In this happy little house
The fire's here to stay
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said
I always know
Please don't make a fuss
It won't go away
The wonder of it all
The wonder that I made
I am here to stay
I am here to stay
Stay
Since the moment I spotted you
I walk round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach’s filled with the butterflies...and it’s alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I’m never gonna' to come down
If I said I didn’t like it then you know I’d lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'm singn' ‘Why don’t you and I get together and take on the world
And be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I'll say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in’
When’s this fever going to break?
I think I’ve handled more than any man can take
I’m like a love-sick puppy chasing you around...and it’s alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I’m never going to come down
If said I didn’t like it then you know I’d lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I’m singn' ‘Why don’t you and I get together and take on the world
And be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I'll say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in’
And slowly I begin to realize this is never gonna to end
Right about the same time you walk by
And I say ‘Oh here we go again’Oh!
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'm singing "Why don’t you and I get together and take on the world
And be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I'll say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in"
love this place
But it's haunted without you
My tired heart
Is beating so slow
Our hearts sing less
Than we wanted
We wanted
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know
We do not know
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said
I always know
You can catch me
Don't you run
Don't you run
If you live another day
In this happy little house
The fire's here to stay
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said
I always know
Please don't make a fuss
It won't go away
The wonder of it all
The wonder that I made
I am here to stay
I am here to stay
Stay
Since the moment I spotted you
I walk round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach’s filled with the butterflies...and it’s alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I’m never gonna' to come down
If I said I didn’t like it then you know I’d lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'm singn' ‘Why don’t you and I get together and take on the world
And be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I'll say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in’
When’s this fever going to break?
I think I’ve handled more than any man can take
I’m like a love-sick puppy chasing you around...and it’s alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I’m never going to come down
If said I didn’t like it then you know I’d lied
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I’m singn' ‘Why don’t you and I get together and take on the world
And be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I'll say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in’
And slowly I begin to realize this is never gonna to end
Right about the same time you walk by
And I say ‘Oh here we go again’Oh!
Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right
So I'm singing "Why don’t you and I get together and take on the world
And be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I'll say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
And straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in"
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
sometimes.... or rather many a times, people have regrets.
humans being humans afterall, always regret when things/situations are too late.
he knows he loves her and her alone. yet when they had the chance n time to be together, he didnt treasure such times. when he lost her ultimately and regrets now, it's just too late.
he can no longer turn back the hands of time.
ooh.. those were some of my thoughts when i read some stuffs online. nopes. no worries. aint emo. (:
i miss A. terribly.
humans being humans afterall, always regret when things/situations are too late.
he knows he loves her and her alone. yet when they had the chance n time to be together, he didnt treasure such times. when he lost her ultimately and regrets now, it's just too late.
he can no longer turn back the hands of time.
ooh.. those were some of my thoughts when i read some stuffs online. nopes. no worries. aint emo. (:
i miss A. terribly.
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