i know i think alot n often think too much. but who wont?!

all i know is no matter what, u will always be my dearest and my gift from heaven. :D

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?

Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won't go away today
Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place
And when they say it's all touch and go I wish I could make it go away
But still you say
Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent
I'm permanent

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry


david cook - i'm permanent

Relationship cannot be felt as a burden. But if u are constantly worried and continue to be, then after some time, u'll feel insecure then u'll tell me I dun give u security. U'll progress from worrying to stress, affecting everything including me. Then u'll explode or u explode wat we built

i remembered the words above vividly. it is not a burden nor is it about me not having enough security from u. i am not worried.



of the exciting and happy moments you have, they are without me.

someone told me that having utmost trust, faith and believe is really important. alot of communication will be very important too.

i have lost all of that. i lost all of it to time. i no longer have much commmunication. maybe it is just me who do not understand. maybe i have simply failed to understand or refused to understand or have even misunderstood everything.

somehow i'm just really upset. you can spend hours out with others. like from 9am till 12mn. i dont even get to have that. all i get is phone calls that are only 5 mins long, just meals together, gifts.... even if i do get to have a day with you, all i get is you sleeping all day, waking only to eat. you would rather spend time and be happy elsewhere with others. if you really want so, then so be it. go with others. go to others. others are SO HAPPY to see you and be with you. they LOVE your company. constantly checking you out.

i no longer have anything. i have lost everything.

it is not whether you are worthy or not but it is about life being worthless. i'm tired. tired of life and all of the struggles it brings.

i feel horrible when i see taller and prettier girls standing so close taking photos with you. maybe i'm ultra paranoid. but... i'm only human. only another plain girl.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?


christina perry - jar of hearts

Things are different now. They will never be the same.

I no longer know whats happening.

What i used to have, i can no longer have now.

Life is always hard, for the belle of the boulevard.

If only we could have a break frm life. From all of life's atrocities.

Save me

You're so delicious
you're so soft
sweet on the tip of my tongue
you taste like sunlight
and strawberry bubble gum

you bite my lip
you spike my blood
you make my heart beat faster

own me, you own
you rattle my bones
you turn me over and over
'till I can't control myself
make me a liar
one big disaster
you make my heart beat faster

it's the way you swell, slow
pushing right out your seams
it's the way you smile, baby
when you've got me on my knees

your all night noise
your siren howl
you make my heart, beat, faster

own me, you own
you rattle my bones
you turn me over and over
'till I can't control myself
make me a liar
one big disaster
you make my heart beat faster

cause I jump back, crash, I crawl
I beg and steal, I follow you
yeah you own me
and you make my heart beat faster

(I can't get enough
because its on like
I guess this world is over to me)

you own me, you own
you rattle my bones
you turn me over and over
'till I can't control myself
make me a liar
one big disaster
you make my heart beat faster