Sometimes words sound so true, so believable. At the turn of the eye, things might not seem so.
Why? Why so shallow? Why?
I cant understand at all. At all. ):
Why so nice? Why so fake?
It is sometimes so hard to tell what's fake n what's true.

Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you


This is really one of richard marx best song. absolutely love it! (:

i finally know the truth.

what i thought, was wrong.

what i know is not real.

beneath all the smiles, lie the happiness that do not belong to me.

a life that is not mine.

my life is not mine.

save me

butterfly kisses

There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's
daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

i know i think alot n often think too much. but who wont?!

all i know is no matter what, u will always be my dearest and my gift from heaven. :D

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?

Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won't go away today
Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place
And when they say it's all touch and go I wish I could make it go away
But still you say
Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent
I'm permanent

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry


david cook - i'm permanent

Relationship cannot be felt as a burden. But if u are constantly worried and continue to be, then after some time, u'll feel insecure then u'll tell me I dun give u security. U'll progress from worrying to stress, affecting everything including me. Then u'll explode or u explode wat we built

i remembered the words above vividly. it is not a burden nor is it about me not having enough security from u. i am not worried.



of the exciting and happy moments you have, they are without me.

someone told me that having utmost trust, faith and believe is really important. alot of communication will be very important too.

i have lost all of that. i lost all of it to time. i no longer have much commmunication. maybe it is just me who do not understand. maybe i have simply failed to understand or refused to understand or have even misunderstood everything.

somehow i'm just really upset. you can spend hours out with others. like from 9am till 12mn. i dont even get to have that. all i get is phone calls that are only 5 mins long, just meals together, gifts.... even if i do get to have a day with you, all i get is you sleeping all day, waking only to eat. you would rather spend time and be happy elsewhere with others. if you really want so, then so be it. go with others. go to others. others are SO HAPPY to see you and be with you. they LOVE your company. constantly checking you out.

i no longer have anything. i have lost everything.

it is not whether you are worthy or not but it is about life being worthless. i'm tired. tired of life and all of the struggles it brings.